Monday, March 30, 2009

WI day

Well, first off, I would like to thank everyone for their encouraging comments last week. It was a tough week mentally, and all your comments really helped ;)

My hubby also helped in a weird sort of way. He asked me at one point towards the end of my binging last week if I was done. I asked him 'done what?' and he said 'done with Weight Watchers?' and that's when everything really hit me - HE ACTUALLY THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO GIVE UP! That floored me. I have told him before that this is a lifestyle change - he knows that, he is changing his lifestyle too!! But I guess he just watched me fall back into old patterns and figure I was going back to how I used to be. I told him - NO, NEVER!!! I am never going back, I am never giving up, and I will reach my goals. I told him that I may stray sometimes, but I will always find my way back.

I think that was the final push I needed. I got right back on track, and drank LOTS of water to help flush all that crap out of my system. It worked really quickly, 2 days later I weighed what I did on the Monday before the binge. And now, at wi day today I was down 0.6, which means I HAVE REACHED 40 LBS GONE!!! I am officially 40.4 lbs lighter than when I started this journey. I am so happy, and ready to have a great week. NO EXCUSES!!!

Friday, March 27, 2009

My week so far - very long post, sorry.

So, I just read Lisa's blog about her week so far, and mine is like the polar opposite of hers.

So far this week I have done ZERO exercise - ZERO!! 

And as for eating.....
Swiss Chalet Chicken on a kaiser with Poutine
Big Mac & fries
Pad Thai
Pizza (4 pieces I think, but maybe 5)
Party Mix (probably half the bag)
Snickers bar

and these are just some of the things that I remember, needless so say I haven't been journaling.

The crazy thing is (more crazy I mean) other than the pizza, I really didn't enjoy any of it - but I didn't stop either. I kept thinking, this will be just what I was looking for, and then it wasn't.  There is one simple reason for this.........THE ANSWER IS NOT FOOD!!!!

I didn't realize until just now how stressed I have been this week. We are trying to get our house in order to put it on the market (painting, cleaning, organizing and dealing with contractors), we are waiting to hear on my husbands raise at work, we have been house hunting and I find one that I LOVE, but my hubby isn't so sure (why can't he just love what I love - lol), and I am still dealing with this dumb hand.

Speaking of my hand, it is healing nicely (according to my Dr) but it is really sore. The bruising is both on the palm (where the wound is) and on the other side of my hand by the thumb knuckle. The Dr said it is due to the internal bleeding and that it will take time to go away - too bad because its really ugly. I find that the wound hurts a bit, but worse is how my whole hand aches after I have used it for a while, which I need to do with everything going on with the house right now.

I know that this is all excuses - and I don't want to make excuses. I want to continue on to my goals. I want to get healthy. I was watching Grey's last night and seeing all the one of the characters has to go through in regards to cancer treatment got me thinking. I know that being overweight is a factor for many cancers, and I don't want to ever have to go through that, or for my family to have to. I know I need to make better choices, to plan ahead and to take the time for exercise. I know these things, so why am I not doing it????

From weight this morning is 6 lbs higher than it was on Monday - SIX pounds!!!!

I need an intervention.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

caught red-handed.

So, last night I was not organized and we didn't end up eating dinner until Way late - what does this mean - it means that I made bad choices (of course I did, I was starving). Chicken on a kaiser (not bad) and POUTINE!!! Yes, the dreaded poutine makes another appearance in my journal (darn you poutine, you french-Canadian wonder!)

Then I did want to get back on track today - I really did. But the kids wanted McD's for lunch, and since I haven't had it in a long time I figured - hey, why not. As I was sitting here eating my Big Mac (yes, I went there) my doorbell rang. Who was is??? My conscience (disguised as my ww buddy). CRAZY!!! I felt so dumb - until she told me that she too ate poutine yesterday!

Well, onward and upward (downward?). I will do better for the rest of the week. My hand is healing, but it is really badly bruised now too - I hope that's OK. I did start to fall down the stairs yesterday (I'm a klutz) and when I did I grabbed the railing with BOTH hands to save myself (BIG MISTAKE) and my sore hand throbbed for a few hours after that. I hope that I didn't dislodge the stitch that is on the vein. If I did I think that I would notice something more than a large bruise.

On a MUCH happier note: I came third in the BLBE challenge for Team Lean last week - YAY! I was so happy to see my name.

Well, back to work now. We are considering moving and trying to get our house ready for showing, so lots of cleaning, painting and organizing to do. Funny how we let things go when we just live here - lol.

Monday, March 23, 2009

wi day

Well, i didn't quite reach my goal of 40 lbs lost for this week - but I came so darned close, 39.8 lbs lost!

I lost 0.8 this week, which I'm ok with since i dropped the ball with my exercise - i will do better this coming week.

I'm actually happy that i didn't reach my goal for one reason - my leader was away! She is so great at celebrating with us, where as the fill-in is kind of bland.

This is taking me forever to type since i can only use one hand, so that's all i am going to say for now - good luck to all with the 30 minute per day exercise challenge!

Sunday, March 22, 2009


Today after we returned home from church I was getting lunch ready and tried to separate frozen burgers with a steak knife - NOT GOOD! I have never seen so much blood - the palm of my hand looked like a red fountain. I screamed for my hubby and off we went to the E.R.. My poor kids, my son (5) kept asking if I was ok, and my daughter (6) wouldn't talk or look at me. She told me later that her heart was 'beeping' the whole time.

2 hours and 4 stitches later (3 outside and 1 in to fix the vein I cut - ewwww!) I am home with a very sore hand.

Otherwise it's been a nice weekend. My son had his first official karate class on Saturday - he did great (no whining like he did at the trial class). He participated the whole time, and he actually looks like he may have a knack for it - who knows? We went through some open houses later in the day Saturday. We are thinking of moving to a bigger house - our starter home is outgrowing our little family.

As for the exercise - I basically dropped the ball since Wednesday - I don't know why but I reverted into my old lazy habits!!! NOT GOOD. This coming week will be better! So, I don't think that I will reach my goal at the scale tomorrow - I think I might get a STS.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

How is everyone doing with the 30mins?

So, this week I am once again trying to get at least 30 minutes of some sort of exercise/activity in. I know, sounds lame, but for someone like me who avoids exercise at all costs its a good start.

Lisa, Rebecca and Heather said they would also try for the same this week, and I am just curious how everyone is doing. 

I did:
Monday - 30 minute walk
Tuesday - big fat goose-egg (i.e. NOTHING)
Wednesday - at least 1 hour walking

I don't know what my problem is with Tuesdays.  I think that is the same day that I wimped out last week. I need to really pick it up for the rest of the week if I hope to reach my goals that I have set forth for the next wi which are:
40 lbs gone (1 lb to go)
out of the 150's (1.6 lbs to go)

Yesterday after swimming lessons, I took the kids into Toronto to go the the dentist and then off to the Royal Ontario Museum. We still go the the dentist in the city because he is the one I used to work for before I had kids - so I trust him and he gives me a discount! Plus I get to catch up with all my old co-workers.
My daughter has been wanting to go to a 'dinosaur museum' for a long time now. I checked it out and the prices are SO expensive, but the ROM listed that you can go for free on Wednesdays after 4:30. So that's what I planned, only to find out that it is not free this week since it is March break, its half price. So here is a breakdown of my costs for my 'free' day:
-$14.50 for parking (and thats with the museum discount)
-$26.00 admission
-$25.00 at the museum gift shop (kidlets NEED a souvenir - lol)
-$9.00 for a transit pass to and from the dentist
-$16.00 for dinner (they had McD's, I had Subway) 

GRAND TOTAL - $90.50 and that's not including gas!!!

Man, its expensive to do anything fun with the kids - I hate that. And truly, they were bored with the museum quite quickly! I think we will stick to the zoo this summer - annual family pass is $140 and they have a water play area to cool off in.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

oh what a beautiful morning

oh what a beautiful day. (yes, its a  happy singing kind of day)

The sun is shining, the birds are singing, and I think that spring is finally here to stay (man, I hope I didn't just jinx it). My kids are upstairs playing very nicely with each other and I just got news that one of my best friends just gave birth to her first baby - a girl!!

I was OP all day yesterday, and it felt great. We even ended the day with an evening walk with the kids. Definitely not a cardio workout - but exercise none the less.

I plan on staying OP again today, and I am VERY excited about the Biggest Loser tonight - I just love the show, and I am excited to see if anything new transpires between Jillian and the cousins tonight.

Monday, March 16, 2009

WI day

It's Monday - that means WI day. 

I'm grateful for a husband who decided to go into work late today so that I could go to my meeting without taking the kids (its march break here)!!!

I lost 2.4 lbs this week - YAY, I am so happy about that. I am 1 lb away from 40 lbs gone, and I am 1.6 lbs away from being in the 140's!!! I can't wait. I am going to try really hard this week to reach both of those goals for my next WI.

I want to thank Lisa for challenging me to get in at least 30 mins of exercise each day this past week - it really paid off. How did you do with it Lisa??? I want to continue this challenge for this week as well, you in? Anyone else in?

I love this program, and I love how great I feel. I love that we are getting healthy as a family, and I love that I have become a role model of healthy living to those around me.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

A very nice weekend

Saturday morning started with taking my boy to a trial karate class, he basically whined and complained the whole time but when it was over he asked me to sign him up. - WEIRD! We figured that we will give it a try because he needs to be involved in something right now (it can't all be about his sister) and we feel that Karate will help him with his balance (this kid falls A LOT!!!)

Then we dropped the kids off at my in-laws for a sleepover. The in-laws called  a few days ago and said they had heard about a reptile place that they wanted to take the kids to and could they have them for a sleepover.

Then we left there about 2:30 and headed off to buffalo for the day. My hubby wanted to check the Coach outlet for a new belt and he also had a craving for the Olive Garden. Hubby didn't find a belt he liked in his size (he is getting so slim, I'm so proud of him) but I did find a new purse. Of course I did!!! We were at Coach. Actually, I found about 4 that I wanted so it was hard for me to settle on which one. I knew I wanted a black one, since I don't have one so this is the one I picked.

I love it, it looks so good on my shoulder. Its very similar to my brown one, but a bit bigger. It was a great price, so I couldn't resist.

We ended up walking around Niagara Falls in the evening, so I did get my 30 minutes of exercise in.  YAY.

Today we went to church, came home and decided to go and see if there were any open houses in the area that we want to move to (there weren't) and then as we pulled back into our driveway my in-laws were pulling up behind us to drop the kids off. Tonight we have a viewing to go to - one of my best friends lost her Grandpa on Friday. Then after I get the kids to bed I will go on the Wii for my APs for today.

WI is tomorrow, so I'm hoping for a good loss.

Friday, March 13, 2009

doing great

Except for my blip in the exercise on Tuesday, this week is going great so far.

Monday - 1 hour walk
Tuesday - zero
Wednesday - 2 x 45 minute walks (didn't do 3 due to severe wind blowing debris into our faces)
Thursday - 30 mins of Wii Fit
Friday - 2 x 30 minute walks

For me, this is great. Lisa's challenge to me has really helped me get moving. It's not a lot of exercise - but its more than I was getting so I am happy with it as a start.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


I am embarrassed to say that I did not get in my 30  mins of exercise yesterday. I meant to walk the kids to school but we all woke up too late. Then at lunchtime I drove to pick up my son because I was feeling lazy and drove again after school because I was out and about doing errands.

We had dinner guests, so I needed to get stuff for that in the afternoon. After our guests left I needed to rush out to a meeting at my church - and I was just too darned lazy to do anything by the time I got home at 9.

I went to bed really upset with myself. My husband was trying to cheer me up and reminding me of how far I have come - but I was not having any of it. It felt horrible that I didn't take that 30 mins out of my day to do something that I NEED to do.

So, today, even though the kids and I woke up late - we walked to school. I didn't not want today to start off like yesterday. I got them to quickly get dressed. Then I quickly made them some toast and put it in a paper towel and out the door we went. They ate their breakfast while we walked. It took longer than it has in the past because we had to change our route a bit to avoid the muddy/wet/snowy trail - so from the time I left the house until the time I returned it was 45 mins. 

So, I will be doing that again at lunchtime to get my son and also after school to get my daughter so today is looking good.

BIGGEST LOSER last night - Like Kari, I was sad to see Mandi go, I liked her. I'm not so big on her sister so I would have been okay with her leaving, but what really bothered me was the way Ron declared that it was "Mandi's turn". He is the least beneficial to the team, so I don't think that he should be so cocky about it.

My faves are Sione and Filipe - although I didn't think that Filipe handled things well with Jillian. He was right to be upset that she hasn't been working with him - but I don't think that she cares now since he freaked out. It will be interesting to see what happens with the cousins for the remainder of the season.

I also like Kristen and she seems to get a lot of airtime so I wonder if she is one of the players that goes to the finals?

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

OK Lisa - I'll do it!!!

Lisa has challenged me to at least 30 mins a day of exercise EVERYDAY from now till our next wi.

Not to hard to do since that is less than a week, but given my history it will be hard.

I WILL DO IT - You're on Lisa!!!

GRRRRRRR (<---that's me putting my game face on)

man, how things change

So, remember last week when I was SO PROUD of myself for eating 1 piece of pizza!?!

Well, that was NOT the case last night. I totally pigged out and downed 4 pieces!!! So now, it is Tuesday (day 2 for my week) and I have already used 30/35 WP's. Why is this so bad? well, I do the 'simply filling' technique with WW so I don't count points everyday, I just eat foods from the filling foods list - SO my 35 WP's are the only thing I have to allow for things like bread, and treats. 

So, here are my choices for the week:
1) Eat only filling foods for the next 6 days (with a little treat somewhere for 5 pts)
2) Earn some major AP's so that I can incorporate other foods a bit throughout my week as I usually do.
3) Be up at the scale on Monday.

Obviously I don't want #3 - and although I could probably do #1 I don't really want to so this might actually be the week that I do some ... dare I say it?.... EXERCISE!!!

Here's to a week of moving more!

Monday, March 9, 2009

Wi day - and grumpy me

I am grumpy today, and the only reason I can think of is that I am VERY tired. 

Yesterday my daughter competed in the Ontario Cheerleading championships, so we had to get up at 6 a.m. I went to bed the night before at midnight because I was fiddling with her hairpiece that she wanted to wear - trying to find a way that it would actually stay in. So, with the time change that meant 5 hours of sleep - then we were at competition from 8 a.m. until 2 p.m. 6 hours at a VERY loud cheer competition when you are tired - NOT GOOD!!

We went for lunch with the in-laws afterwards, and then by the time we drove back to our town I was able to settle in for about an hour before I had a meeting to go to at my church. The night didn't end until about 11:30 when I was finally able to get to bed - so that is probably why I am so BEAT today.

I went to weight watchers this morning and I am down 1.2 lbs. Its a good loss, but still not as much as I gained last week, so I was hoping for more. I checked back in my ww log, and I seem to have been battling the same few pounds since January 26th. 
Jan. 26 - 155.2
Feb. 2 - 153.8
Feb. 9 - 154.6
Feb. 17 - 153.4
Mar. 2 - 155.2
Mar.9 - 154.0

SO I am sick of the yo-yoing, and time to get serious again. I KNOW KNOW KNOW that it is majorly due to the fact that I have not been exercising (man, I must sound like a broken record with this) so I have to get serious. I have decided that at the VERY least, I will be walking the kids to and from school this week. That means back and forth 3 times as I have drop off, get my son at lunch time and then get my daughter after school. That should be good for SOMETHING since it takes about 15-20 mins to walk to their school.

FYI, tired or not - cheer competition was totally worth it. My daughters team placed 4th in the province!!! GO KITTIES!! 

This is her on the top of one of the stunts early in the routine:
This is her going up in the pyramid towards the end of the routine - she is looking down - NOT GOOD - lol

This is her helping to hold the trophy and showing that us all that they placed 4th!! 


Thursday, March 5, 2009

proud me moment!

So yesterday I was feeling crappy, and when Hubby got home I hadn't yet started dinner. He asked if I would mind if we ordered pizza - I said 'lets do it'.

Background - I have a MAJOR problem with pizza. I LOVE it, and I can't seem to control myself with it, so I have (mostly) stayed away from it so far on this journey. The average pizza dinner for me includes at least 4 or 5 slices.

So, last night we ordered 2 mediums instead of the regular 2 larges. While he went out to pick it up I decided to make a salad to go with it. I made this very YUMMY apple & carrot salad recipe from my week 7 WW book. When the pizzas were home I found a nice slice for myself and filled the rest of my plate with salad. 

THAT WAS IT FOR ME  - ONE SLICE!!!!!  I am so proud of myself. Even today, with all the leftovers in the house, I didn't touch them. I was tempted to. TOM started this morning and is VERY heavy and I have been really crampy all day, in fact I spent most of the day in bed. But when I did get up to make some lunch I was starving because I skipped breakfast (so I could sleep) and I was tempted to just grab some pizza since it would be quick. But, I managed to fight that urge and make myself a nice pt friendly lunch.

So, we as a family only ate 1 medium pizza last night, the rest became leftovers - this is a breakthrough for us. And we only ate that much because my hubby was feeling extra hungry.

Man, I love the changes that our whole household is making - we are all healthier than ever before.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

BIggest Loser - (don't read if you haven't seen it yet)

Well, other than the fact that I felt ripped off for not seeing the end result of the WI last night - it was a great show.

My husband and I love the part where you see how well the person has done since they have gone home and we didn't get to see that last night - booo.

What a sweetheart Mike is, giving away his reward like that. He's a good kid.

It's also nice to see how the players are connecting with their new trainers now. I really noticed that Mandy seems to be connecting with Bob - but who wouldn't!?! Bob is so great.

I really find this show motivating. I'm definitely going to check out the website to see if I can find the recipes from last nights show.

I can't wait until next week to find out the results of the WI and to see Filipe freak out on Jillian. My favorites so far this year are Sione and Filipe.

My prediction - Mike will not drop the required weight and the 2 players going home will be Aubrey and Laura.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

nothing new

I don't really have anything to post yet, but I am trying very hard to stay OP this week, so I thought that posting here would help to keep me accountable.

Eating yesterday and so far today have been good. I have my stew going in the crock pot for dinner so that should be good to help me round out the day. 

I haven't done any exercise yet this week, so I really do need to start that. I hope to earn at least 2 APs today.

I heard on the radio today that it is expected to go up to 10 degrees on Friday (that's 50 for my American friends) and its supposed to stay nice through the weekend, so that'll be good for getting in some outdoor APs.

Oh yeah, and CONGRATS to Gracie and her hubby on their pregnancy!!!

I am trying very hard to plan ahead this week with my food, because my history shows that when I don't plan, I fail.

Monday, March 2, 2009

up 1.8 from Cuba

and I am definitely okay with that. I ate very poorly, so I definitely expected more.

One interesting thing is that the person who weighed me in wrote that I gained 2.2, but it wasn't until I got home and looked at my book that I noticed she did the math wrong - so that is an added bonus.

I feel like I am ready to get right back on program - I so want to reach my goals. One thing that Cuba proved to me was that although I have come a long way, I am not where I want to be for bathing suit season. I liked my suit a lot, and but still did not feel truly comfortable being in public in a bathing suit. My arms DEFINITELY need work and so do other spots, so its time to get SERIOUS about exercise.

I HATE exercise, so this is going to be tough. I'm dusting off the 30 day shred and starting fresh.