A fresh start.

Enough is enough. 

I've gained enough weight and finally took control of my life back and went back to weight watchers.

I went Monday, and as I walked in the door I couldn't see my leader, so I slowly stuck my head around the divider - and there she was. She lifted her head up, saw me and smiled!! She came out from behind the counter, gave me a big hug and said "I'm so glad that you didn't give up." It felt so nice, it truly felt like 'coming home'.

I've gained back most of what I lost, but I'm trying not to worry about that - and just move on.

I'm excited to get back to blogging and reading everyone's daily adventures.

dare I say it......

back AGAIN!

Man, this is becoming a theme for me.

Well, 3rd times a charm - RIGHT?

I had decided on Sunday that NO MATTER WHAT I was going to my meeting on Monday. When I spoke with my ww buddy, she wasn't really keen on going because she knew she would be up, but when she heard that I was going she decided to go too.

We both faced the scales, and it was NOT pretty. I am officially 14 lbs heavier than my lowest weight which was on April 20 - 14 lbs in 3 months !! THAT STINKS.

I weigh the same as I did on DEC.29 so basically I am more than 6 months behind - THAT REALLY STINKS!!!

What hit home for me was that as I was sitting there waiting for the meeting to start, I saw a poster for a WW contest to be a success story. I VOWED to be a success story - and now, here is a contest, staring me in the face. 

Had I stayed on track, I may have been at goal, or at least, very close to. 

Well, I still want to be a success story. I got an entry form, and I have posted it on my fridge. I have until the end of September to enter, so I have until the end of september to get my butt in gear, and lose weight.

wish me luck ;)

back again

Well, I haven't been posting here very much because I have been so disappointed in the choices that I have been making, so I haven't wanted to talk (write) about it.

The good news is, I AM BACK! The house is sold, and the new house is bought - so life can now get back to normal.

I really didn't handle the situation of house hunting and having the house on the market well at all - I totally threw all my hard work aside and reverted back into old patterns that got me fat in the first place. Through the month long process (or just a bit longer than a month) I gained 8.6  lbs!! YUCK

Last week at my meeting I was pretty quite. My leader came up to me afterwards and reminded me how far I've come. She reminded me that I've done WW before and never stuck with it this long. She reminded me that at other times in my life this kind of gain would have caused me to quit - but this time I'm still there. SHE IS SUCH A FANTASTIC LEADER!!!!

I wasn't very motivated at that point, and I think she could sense that so she challenged me to change just ONE thing in the following week. Sounded easy enough so I thought I would give it a try. I decided that I wasn't ready to get my eating back on track so I would try to incorporate some activity in my week (yes, EXERCISE  - my NEMESIS!!!). So I pulled out the new Wii Active program that I bought and gave it a try. I did it two times last week, and then pulled the muscles in my thighs pretty badly, so that was it for the week - but it was something.

I was down 1.6 at wi today, so its a start. Only (yeah right, only) 7 more lbs to go to get back to where I was. But I know I will do it, I will get there. I am not going to give up. This weeks lesson was geared towards motivation and things we can do to get us back to the point where we were highly motivated - JUST WHAT I NEED!! So I left there feeling rejuvenated - ready to tackle this head on, and to make good choices this week.

We don't move until August 27th, so I have time to drop some more weight and hopefully my new neighbours will never know the fat Jen - just healthy Jen.

In case you want to see it, here are a few pics of the new place. (We love it and are super excited - I took 80 pics, but will just post one of the exterior and two of the kitchen - I LOVE MY KITCHEN!!)